Rejected Good

Short note: I just want to rant. Let me do it...

As some of you might have known, I applied for a job with Shell some time in March. Last week, I went for their Shell Recruitment Day (SRD) for their final assessment. There were three exercises/sessions on that day; individual case study, group case study and technical interview. Out of the three, I think I did quite badly in my technical interview. Done with the SRD, I was told that the outcome of the interview would be discussed within the next 3 working days.

After two days of waiting, another guy who went for the SRD texted and asked me whether I had any news from Shell or not. No was my answer. He further told me that two other people had been offered a position with Shell. That got me curious and worried. So, I texted another girl and asked if she received any phone call from Shell. To my surprise, she had been offered too!

With 3 out of 6 people had been offered, I thought they will call me soon to let me know the outcome. However, the next day was Saturday and then, Wesak Day (holiday in Malaysia) was on Monday. I expected them to give me a call on Tuesday.

The more I wait, the more curious I was. At one time, I thought I don't have chance anymore but at another time, I thought they might not be so cruel to reject me. Afterall, I only did quite badly in the technical interview part.

Days after days, I finally received a call from Shell this afternoon. A familiar voice from one of the guy in the SRD. First, I was told about the qualities I had during the SRD and then, it was about the qualities that I have to improve on. Next on, he told me,

"Unfortunately, you didn't meet the benchmark. We couldn't offer you a position. You can apply again with Shell after 2 years."

My heart sank when I heard that. I didn't know if I should be happy or sad. Happy because at least, they called. Sad because I am a rejected good. Frankly, Shell is the only company I have applied for a position so far. I wanted to join Shell very much simply because it is a reputable company in oil and gas industry (my preferred industry) and also because it provides proper training for fresh graduates. Apart from that, I can't deny I am attracted by the salary they offer. In a small city like Miri, it's pretty difficult to find such good company.

I know it's not the end of the world to be rejected by a company. Nevertheless, I still feel quite depressed to be rejected by a company which I have always wanted to join. This is not the first time they rejected me. The last time when I applied for my internship, they also rejected me. Maybe I really have to look at the brighter side or in another words, comfort myself to make me feel not that bad.

Ahhh! Enough with the ranting! Now tell me what are you going to do with this "rejected good"? Any rubbish bin cares to take me?

P/s: If you know any rubbish bin in Miri looking for rejected goods to fill them up, please let me know. I want to prove to them I'm a rejected good which can still be sold for good money!