Few previous experiences were:
- My uncle was telling me that one shouldn't study so much (back when I was in third year). In fact, one could earn more through direct sale. Since he was one of them who told me to study as much as I could when I was in my primary school, I told him back directly, "Why did you tell me to study when I was younger and now, when I was almost finish with my uni, you tell me that I don't need to study." Straight away, an arguement began. After that, I was being told that I was being rude. End up, I was upset...
- I was discussing with my baba about his business one day (couldn't remember when) when a debate started. I actually asked him to get another clerk to help with the office works and also to handle some other stuff. He gave all sort of reasons and of course, I, too gave backup to my idea. After few days, my mama told me that my baba was not very pleased with me. End up, I was upset...
- When I told one close friend about how I felt towards our friendship, our friendship, as a result, turned sour. This is not what I'm looking forward but, sigh... Anyway, again end up, I was upset...
- Just today, my business mind worked again. I asked my baba whether it is possible to do public transport business in Miri. His answer is no. When I asked him again for his reasons, he didn't give but after the second time I asked, this is his answer; "give free lah". Meaning, unless you give people free ride. I hope for a better reason of course. End up, I was upset...
Maybe my mama was right. "It's because they're closed to you that made you tell them everything honestly. I don't think you'll tell a stranger like this because you won't care about a stranger."
Pah! I couldn't care more. Perhaps, it's still the best to keep everything to myself...