Me? Update?

I am supposed to be in my bed now but I decided to write an update about myself. This is due to the fact that, I might not be able to blog for the next one week or two. Why? You'll know if you read on...

Early tomorrow morning, I'll be heading to Brunei for Perth to attend my convocation on the 16th of April 2008. Yes, something to be happy on eh? Finally I get to graduate eh? Actually, it's mixed emotion for me.

I am happy because I finally get myself a degree in Bachelor of Engineering (Mechanical) after struggling for fours years in uni. Not only that, this time, my parents will be going to Perth with me for the very first time. For your information, they didn't go to Perth with me when I first went into uni. I have to thanks my friend, Danny, for taking over my parents' role. My parents will attend my convo and I'll be able to bring them around Perth (only if I know how to go from one place to one place cause I didn't drive in Perth!). It has been a long time since my family went for a holiday together. So, I'm looking forward for that.

I actually felt more worried than happy for the past few months, from the day I know I have passed all my units and am going to graduate. I am a bit lost, not knowing what to do. I don't know whether I should stay at Perth for work. There are several pros and cons living in Perth which I won't be listing here. This post will get too long if I do so. Besides Perth, other alternatives are working in Miri, Kuala Lumpur or Singapore. Like Perth, there are also pros and cons working in these places. Maybe it's all about my career, I take this a little bit too serious till it affected my emotion. I was not too happy in these few months seriously, from all the pressure I was facing. Sasha faced pre-natal depression, Mott faced post-natal depression and as for me, I faced post-graduate depression! Is there such thing? Hmm...

Anyway, thanks to Firehorse and few other friends who gave me valuable advices and support on this, I think I've more or less made up my decision; to stay at Miri. Like what Firehorse has told me, "Don't afraid to make mistake. Nobody knows if your decision is right or wrong, only after you've gone through it yourself". This is what I should really learn. I think I'm just too afraid that the decision I made is wrong. Coward? Yea, I admit.

So, this time when I go back to Perth, I'll have a lot of things to settle apart from attending my convo. I'll definitely miss Perth, which is considered as my second home. I'll miss all my friends, uni, food, places of interest etc... I understand that, I'll lose something if I wanna gain something. I guess, I've lost something in this case.

I think I better stop here. This post is getting too long. Aunty Judy is going to say, Cheong Hei Gong (long winded grandpa)! Till then, I'll update when I can. Take care, all!:)

P/s: My convocation is on the 16th of April 2008 in front of The University of Western Australia's clock tower at about 8 or 9p.m.. All of you who are reading this are welcomed to the party! Come and take a photo or two with me! It's going to be a great memory for me. :)